sporadic postings…

I realise that as of late, I’ve been a rather sporadic poster. And even when I do post it all lacks any consistency or depth (not that it has ever delved too deeply here). I’m not sure why I have a lack of enthusiasm for sharing information or if perhaps it is just that I am all thunk out.

Why is life going by so quickly, but I feel like I can hardly grasp a day to collect my thoughts and come up with anything interesting to say? It bums me out to think that at 31 I am all washed up of fresh ideas or interests.

This year has been a weird one in general. I think a lot of people are feeling this as well. A lot of change has occurred for everyone that I know. Change is not always a bad thing, but it is unsettling and different people deal with it in different ways.

For me this year has been filled with a lot of strange events. The Roley stuff really threw me for a loop, then there have been ongoing health problems that are testing my sanity and other issues that have gotten into my head. A lot of things have basically been out of my control and it has really put some perspective into my life. I have come to realise that I hate not being in control of things. I am a total control freak. But at the same time, I have had to learn to cope with this lack of control by trying to be positive and get on with it. Everyone around me has had to deal with my numerous complaints and whining, but I have also realised that this doesn’t help the situation much. For now I am attempting to deal with these curveballs that life is throwing me and see what I can do to make things different.

Therefore, if you wonder why I haven’t been posting, there you have it. I don’t want to post a bunch of negative, whiney crap so I choose not to post at all. But I forsee a comeback in the very near future, so stay tuned and don’t give up on me yet!