I think that I lack a bit of balance and consistency in my life. Really. I can’t seem to balance things very well. Either I am trapped in the depths of work and this consumes my brain or I am self-absorbed with some random project of mine (of which I have many). I lack the balance to not burn myself out on one end or the other.
And for those of you who really know me, you will know that boredom plays a big role in my life.
I hate to be bored. I like to keep my mind occupied. I want to stay busy.
I make stupid lists upon lists of things to do. Even lists about things to think about.
And when I get bored? Well… then I move on to the next thing. This applies to many things in my life. Some might call it multi-tasking and consider it an asset while I call it old-fashioned A.D.D.
I don’t think that I am alone in this “life attention deficit disorder” of mine. I think that perhaps I am partially a victim of my generation. Too much leisure, too much easy input – whether it be voluntary or involuntary. Technology moves so rapidly that the human mind has adapted its processor to keep up. We are constantly barraged with EVERYTHING. Input input input. Brains have gone from 2400 baud to broadband. Survival of the fittest and all that.
I need a disconnect. I need to be stuck in a depravation tank.
Which is why my colleagues at Skype took it upon themselves to check me into an Estonian style dark room for a chillout session…
see how relaxed i am now?